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2019 remake of a song I first made in 2011. The main sample comes from a video in which a person jumped off a building in a suicide. The smack against the concrete sounded like a snare drum. Most of the sound preceding that is the odd chorus of sighs from the crowd.


Wake up now.

what is time and how long
do i have to stay?

heard it in the silence;
saw it on the screen;
found it in the egress;
it amputated me.

i stay destroyed

sleep, a day, a week to stem the flow:
feel me like a phantom limb of hands around your throat.
bleed away a lifetime with me;
or wrap it tight in tourniquets and saw it all away.

i stay destroyed.

god hates the world.
i hate the world.